I found indeed some intervals of reflection , and the serious thoughts did , as it were endeavour to return again sometimes , but i shook them off , and rouz d my self from them as it were from a distemper , and applying my self to drink and company , soon master d the return of those fits , for so i call d them , and i had in five or six days got as compleat a victory over conscience as any young fellow that resolv d not to be troubled with it , could desire : but i was to have another trial for it still ; and providence , as in such cases generally it does , resolv d to leave me entirely without excuse 为此，我必定会遭受新的灾难。上帝见我不思悔改，就决定毫不宽恕地惩罚我，并且，这完全是我自作自受，无可推诿。既然我自己没有把平安渡过第一次灾难看作是上帝对我的拯救，下一次大祸临头就会变本加厉那时，就连船上那些最凶残阴险最胆大包天的水手，也都要害怕，都要求饶。
But now when i began to be sick , and a leisurely view of the miseries of death came to place itself before me ; when my spirits began to sink under the burthen of a strong distemper , and nature was exhausted with the violence of the feaver ; conscience that had slept so long , begun to awake , and i began to reproach my self with my past life , in which i had so evidently , by uncommon wickedness , provok d the justice of god to lay me under uncommon strokes , and to deal with me in so vindictive a manner 地震该是大自然最可怕的景象了吧，而且，这往往使人想到冥冥中的那种神力，这种神力往往又与上帝或天意联系在一起。可是，在最初的一阵恐惧过去之后，关于神力和上帝的印象也马上随之消失。我既不觉得有什么上帝，也不认为有所谓上帝的审判，也没有想到我目前可悲的处境是出于上帝的意旨，好像我一直生活得十分优裕舒适似的。
