I wish i could believe them to be only such : i wish it more now than ever ; since even you cannot explain to me the mystery of that awful visitant 但愿我能相信不过如此而已！而既然连你都无法解释可怕的来访者之谜，现在我更希望只是心理恐惧了。 ”
God cured me , but not until i needed it . not until i proved that i was going to believe in the invisible and step forward in faith and do it . not until i was in seminary did god give me the keys and the gifts to allow me to speak 是神医治了我， ?是在我有需要时才作出医治，直至证明我能相信那看不见的，直至我在信心上迈出一大步，直至我能向前走，面对群众，直至我在念神学，神才给我那钥匙，给我礼物，让我能够说话。
